Pretend I’ve invited you to your child’s school for a meeting. And I tell you that the meeting will be you and 5-10 people who you do not really know, but in many ways they hold the keys to your child’s destiny and future. And, during that meeting, we are going to discuss all of your child’s negative behaviors, all of the ways they are not measuring up to their age-peers, all of their regression, all their faults and all of their shortcomings. When you go to this meeting, if you ask for things to try to fix this, we are going to continually say “no” and moreover, tell you that your opinions are wrong. Would you go to this meeting?
So it’s no wonder that we cry!
Mind you, of course I cry too. Crying is normal. But I don’t cry at IEP meetings anymore. I treat my IEP meeting as a business meeting. I am there on business–to get my child’s needs met. It doesn’t mean I love my child any less, I just approach it differently. I was in the professional work force for 20 years and I don’t think I ever cried at a business meeting, have you?
This post has been on my mind for MONTHS. I hear from so many moms….when you send me emails or Facebook messages with your questions and concerns. And I’ve been thinking of a way to reach more moms, help more moms….help us grasp this whole IEP thing, begin to make sense of it. Most of all, I want to help stop the tears. Because I get that concern a lot: “I don’t want to cry, but I can’t help it!”
I recently heard an advocate say something to the effect of “crying (at meetings) is ok, it shows your fierce love for your child.” I disagree. Mind you, this is not an attempt to finger wag or shame moms who have cried at IEP meetings. Sometimes our emotions get the best of us and WE HAVE ALL been there. However, I don’t think that any mom feels fierce or empowered in the moments that she is crying at IEP meetings. You might feel embarrassed, vulnerable, mad at yourself for losing control, frustrated and sad. But I don’t think that fierce comes to mind.
I am working on a post about misogyny and IEP meetings, and crying matters. It shouldn’t, but it does. We could chat all day about how our society says that it’s not OK for men to cry, but the fact is, men do not cry at IEP meetings…..hardly ever. When do men cry at business meetings? This is a business meeting!
- you’re sad because of your child’s losses
- you’re sad because of your child’s lack of progress
- you don’t feel his IEP is adequate
- you’re worried about your child’s future
- you don’t feel you’re being listened to, and have tears of frustration
If I had to narrow it down, those are probably the main reasons that Moms cry at IEP meetings, right? And you know what, there is a time and a place to cry, but the IEP meeting is not the time or the place.
Let’s address these issues. The first one, your child’s losses.
the biggest thought hurdle to overcome
I have a child who is medically complex and has a life-threatening seizure disorder. I know what it is like to stress over your child’s health. I get it, I really do.
But as far as the developmental issues, we have to stop treating that like it’s a bad thing. So what if a kid cannot talk? It’s not sad that my child cannot talk, it’s sad that only a handful of people in this society will take the time to try to communicate with him.
Turn your thinking around about your child’s developmental issues.
“He needs social skills.” Ok, sure, let’s work on that. But what if also worked on everyone else too? What if, as a society, we taught our children to recognize autistic children and to change their approach to them? What if, we taught our typical children to be more accepting, to go the extra mile, to try extra hard to like a child that does not always seem that likable?
For the first 9 years of my child’s life, his only issues were developmental…and yet, time and time again, I was told to mourn his very existence. Think about that for a minute–I was told, by doctors, by society, tv, schools….that a child who is delayed is a very sad thing. I was told by my ob/gyn’s office that I should “mourn the loss of my typical child, and prepare for life with a special needs child.”
No. I will not do that. I will decide when to be sad. Not you.
This is the biggest hurdle. Overcome this, and you are 90% of the way there to not crying about IEPs. Seriously.
the rest of the list
Look above and re-read numbers 2-5. You got this. You found this blog, so that is a huge step. This blog and the accompanying Facebook group (link below) have helped so many moms. It’s just a process you have to learn. You’ll get there. You’ll learn to use language that the district is more likely to respond to. You’ll learn to use tools like the PWN to get your paper trail. You’ll get support in the Facebook group and realize that you are not alone, and may even form friendships–online and in real life.
And there will still be sad moments and moments of tears. But they’ll be much less frequent, I promise.
(Blog Owner’s Note: This post was originally published on 4/1/15, but I am updating it.)